I don’t have this answer.
What I do know is that I am trying my hardest to relish what time I have left of this pregnancy. This could be the last time I feel one of my children from the inside. The last time that I carry around a belly that sparks conversation no matter where I go. The last time that I feel little hiccups that make my belly jump.
I have been pregnant more than I haven’t. I’ve never gone very long without carrying a baby inside me. The thought that this could be my last time, throws me back a bit. To not experience any of this again is a little mind blowing.
As my days are numbered with this little one growing inside my belly, I’ve been thinking about all this. I’ve become a bit emotional about it. Half of me wants to stay pregnant as long as I possibly can and the other half wants to get this show on the road so I can meet this baby!
I’m not sure what to do with or how to process all these emotions at one time and in such a short amount of time.
I know this baby will come on His terms. No matter what I do, this baby’s birthday is completely out of my hands. Again, part of me is completely fine with that and part of me is not.
I want to hold this baby. I want to smell that newborn smell. I want to experience labor & delivery one more time. I want to meet our 6th child.
I don’t normally blog this late but my thoughts aren’t letting me relax and I needed to get this out. My mind is going rapidly and a crazy these last few days because this pregnancy is coming to an end…..and very soon.
All I want is a healthy baby and a successful vbac delivery.
Oh and to hold Landon or Emma 🙂
So here we are….40 weeks & 1 day. Baby W has decided that it’s not time to come and he/she just isn’t ready to grace us with their presence.
Here is a recap of 39 weeks.
Besides just feeling pressure, there wasn’t much going on & no change in anything.
Wednesday evening me & a bestie went walking to try and get things started. We walked 2 miles. Then I came home and went to the store with Mister = more walking. Then we Googled pressure points to help induce labor & then Mister rubbed those points. Nothing came from any of those efforts.
Another bestie of mine has been out of town helping one of her family members & Mister said that this baby is probably waiting on her to come back into town. Well, she stopped by yesterday and told Baby W that it was ok to come anytime now! We’ll see how well Baby listens 😉
And then last night happened. We had eaten dinner, our family that is in town had gone back to their hotel, and the kiddos were getting ready to have a cupcake. I was sitting on the couch & I felt a ton of pressure building up on the under part of my belly. At first I figured that it was just pressure and nothing would come from it. Well then it started to build again and I had to close my eyes and concentrate & then the discomfort/pain went down. These contractions started to be consistent & started to become more painful. Mister finally said that I needed to start timing them. He could tell by the way that I was acting & getting irritated when people talked to me that these were the real deal. At first I wasn’t sure just because of the way they felt. They weren’t what I remembered with my other 4 labors (I never labored with baby #5). I said that I would start timing them after I went to the bathroom. Went to the bathroom and decided to get my shower in at that time instead of waiting until later in the evening…just in case. Nothing happened after I got up from the couch. Everything stopped. No pain. No contractions. No nothing. I was so bummed. I really thought it was about to be go time. Since it stopped, we did the pressure points again. Nothing happened over night. This takes us to this morning (Friday). I had my appointment this morning and was ready to see what the dr would have to say & see if I had dilated more since last week.
Everything checked out just fine with me (weight & blood pressure). We talked about induction options. There is a small chance that my uterus could rupture period because of having a prior csection. My risk increases (not by much) when you put the option in of using pitocin. I would really not like to add a higher chance of my uterus rupturing if it’s not needed. My dr knows this and we are on the same page. She will allow me to go all of next week to go into labor on my own but if I don’t, then we will schedule an induction for the last week of July. She asked if I wanted to be checked and I said yes. I wanted to know if I dilated more with everything that was going on. I am still at 2cm, no biggie. I asked her if she would do a membrane sweep & she said she would. I told her to go ahead and do it. Boy was that more painful than I remember! Of course I had some spotting afterwards and have had some cramping but that’s to be expected. My next appointment is scheduled for Wednesday the 23rd if there is no baby before then.
Hopefully I can get this baby to come on his/her own! I do not want to be induced or have another csection! I will continue to try natural ways to get things moving & pray it works!
If something happens between now and my next appointment, I will definitely update 🙂
40 weeks & 1 day (July 18, 2014)
Today was my 38 week dr appointment. Due to scheduling issues, I had to reschedule from last Thursday to today. Click here to ready my update from Thursday!
I only gained a pound since my last appointment. Yay for that! My blood pressure was fine. And there finally wasn’t protein in my urine, phew!
Baby’s heart rate was 148. Still head down!
I asked to be checked this time. With everything that I have been feeling, I wanted to see if I was still at 1 cm dilated or I had progressed. She said that I wasn’t quite at a 3 but definitely at 2 cm dilated! Good to know that this discomfort is doing something!
She will allow me to go 2 weeks past my due date. Which I am thankful for. I would rather a dr give me time to try & have my body go into labor naturally then cut me short. Plus I have read that if you are having a VBAC, then using pitocin can make your uterus rupture. Not something I want to do at all! Even though the risk may be low, not willing to take that chance.
I had an appointment for this Friday but since she saw me today, that appointment is cancelled, and I will go back on 07/18 if Baby W hasn’t made his/her appearance by then.
As of today, I am 10 days away from my due date…..crazy!!!!
Here I am at 38 weeks & 4 days 🙂
See you Thursday for another update…..39 weeks then!!!! 🙂
Only a couple of weeks left!
Let’s recap week 37!
Nothing much as changed over this last week. Lots of pressure going on. Mucus plug is still coming out but no bloody show. No contractions. Baby is always moving. It feels like there is never a time that the baby isn’t moving! Some nights I can feel & see that my feet are swelling. Nothing concerning about it, just think that it’s that point in the pregnancy. When I stand up/walk, usually at night, I feel like if my belly were to push out anymore, it would pop! I am trying to stand up straight when I walk but man, there is a lot of weight going on in the front!
I was supposed to have a dr appointment this morning but some scheduling issues came up & it had to get rescheduled for Monday morning. I will do a little update after my appointment. I am anxious to see if I am dilated anymore!
I finally have my bag packed! Two gold stars for that one….took me long enough! There are just some last minute items that will be added when it’s actually time to go. I am getting excited to see when my body will start contractions & when this little ones birthday will be. I have had so much fun seeing when people think I will go into labor with this fun game! I’m excited to see who will get the date right or at least close!
I almost have the house to where I would be ok if I went into labor right now. I want it to look a certain way so that when I come back from the hospital, I don’t walk in & get stressed just by looking at the mess that was left or see something that I wanted to put away before it was go time. I know that it won’t be exactly the way that I want but close enough is good enough at this point.
I forgot a picture this time but I will get one taken on Monday for my update 🙂
Since I am turning 37 weeks tomorrow (What?!) I figured I would just combine the two weeks. I was supposed to have an appointment last but life got in the way (anyone else know what I’m talking about!?) and so I had to reschedule my appointment for Monday. Plus I had an appointment scheduled for Friday but since I was in Monday, my dr just said to cancel that one & she’ll just see me next week. Sounds good to me!
For the past 2 weeks I have been feeling lots of pressure and cramping in my lower back & on the under side of my belly. Sunday was the day that this happened the most. Mister kept asking me if I was ok. He’s getting on his toes about all this too! Nothing to the point that I feel the need to call my dr or go to labor & delivery but can definitely tell my body is getting ready to have this baby. I’ve been drinking my water still but it never seems to be enough (I’ll explain when I talk about my appointment). The belly is definitely getting the way of doing things. Sometimes I have to hold my breath to tie my shoes, haha! Getting up off the floor is a challenge all in itself. Oh to be a fly on the wall to watch me sometimes…I am sure that I would be laughing at myself most of the time! Something that I keep forgetting to say is that I have noticed no new stretch marks! Which totally awesome to me since I always seem to get new ones with each baby. I am definitely waddling when I walk. I am sitting here trying to think of anything else that I need to update on but I don’t think so…or at least I can’t remember 😉
So onto the dr appointment update!
My appointment was Monday afternoon. These last few appointments that I have, I always get excited about them. I love to see what my body is doing and how it’s progressing this far along. According to the scale, I have lost a pound since last week. I was not expecting that since #1, it was an afternoon appointment & #2, the amount of food I have been shoving in my face. I asked my nurse what my total weight gain had been up until now, which isn’t all that accurate since I didn’t start going to the dr until I was 24 weeks but I can’t imagine that I have gained too much since I didn’t look pregnant until even after I found out. Anyway, she said that as of Monday, I have only gained a total of 15 pounds! I was not expecting that number at all! I am pretty proud of myself for that. I know that I usually gain more than that.
I was hoping that she would check me since I told her that I was having a lot of pressure but she didn’t, hopefully next week I will get checked. When she was measuring my belly she doubled checked that I had always been measuring a week bigger than what I actually am &, yes, I have. So still on that track. No my due date hasn’t changed. She was checking the heart rate of the baby & started to get a bit concerned. She checked my heart rate and said that mine was a bit fast. Usually the baby’s heart rate is in the 140s-150s and it was only registering at 110-117 she said. She wanted me to get an ultrasound done to make sure that everything was ok with the baby. Baby is very active and always moving. Better to be safe than sorry. Once I was able to get squeezed into the ultrasound room, everything checked out just fine. The baby’s heart rate was back up to it’s normal. We got a few more pictures again! Mostly a squished face but we also got a picture of the baby’s hair! Thought that was so cool because I have never seen hair on an ultrasound before. I would scan these pictures but I cannot get the printer installed onto our computer for whatever reason. Mister is still looking into that.
Anyway, that’s it for right now.
Oh! If you would like to join in on the fun & make a prediction on when I will have this baby and then gender, please click here! We are getting close to some of these dates! I am excited to see who gets the closest!!! Today is actually the day of one of the guesses…..we will see!!!
Taken at 36 weeks and 4 days!
See you next week 🙂
Only 6 more weeks?! This is crazy!
I know that I say this every week but I cannot believe how fast this is all going & how quickly D day is coming! I was hoping that the days would go by slower….no such luck! So let’s recap week 33.
I turned 34 weeks on 06/05/14.
I was told last week that I have a waddle. I didn’t feel like I was waddling and don’t watch myself walk, so I wouldn’t really know. But I guess it is at that point in pregnancy where I would have one. No biggie to me though!
I have noticed that my belly seems to be a bit bigger but not by much.
Baby has been more active at night when I am laying down. His/her movements have become more uncomfortable also. I don’t know if this is because the baby is trying to turn (pretty sure baby hasn’t done this yet) or if it’s because baby is just running out of space. Who knows & it doesn’t really matter but it’s just something that I have noticed.
I have Baby W’s bag packed (for the most part). I will need to add things to it as it gets closer and/or if I can think of anything else to add. Knowing me, I will probably rearrange things & repack it a few more times. Usually this has been done for at least a month now….definitely been slacking!
(Yes there are clothes in there, they are just all under that fantabulous blanket that you see next to the diapers.)
Baby seems to be getting the hiccups more often or maybe I am just noticing them more. I usually only feel/notice them at night.
I have not been having any braxton hicks or even contractions.
I’ve still been walking almost everyday but if it’s too hot outside, I won’t venture out. It just gets too hot here some days.
I have a few friends who don’t think that I will make it into July at all! This makes me nervous! I have never had a baby more than a few days before their due date. Having a baby at least 2 weeks before their due date isn’t something that I would like to happen. But believe me, no matter when this baby gets here, it will surely be loved by many 🙂
My next doctors appointment is this Friday the 13th. I will be having an ultrasound at this appointment as well as getting checked. I am hoping that with the ultrasound it will show that the baby has turned. I really don’t want to have to worry about this again. I know that I have at least a month to get baby turned if need be but having tried during my last pregnancy and nothing worked….it’s just not something that I would like to go through again. We shall see on Friday though!
One of my best friends has pretty much taken care of all the details for me. She already has plans for our other kiddos. Which is very helpful for us! She is also going to come up to the hospital after baby is born and take some pictures. Which I am totally excited about because we have never had pictures like that before.
I also have all 5 kiddos bags packed for ‘go time’. They aren’t allowed to go into these bags now that they are packed. It’s all set, they would just need to put shoes on. I still need to start on my bag but I will probably do that in the next week or 2. Whatever Mister will be bringing will probably be thrown into my bag when it’s time. That’s just how he rolls. No biggie to me though since he’s low maintenance and doesn’t want a ton of stuff anyway while we are there.
I think this is all I have to update you on. I will do my 35 week update (recapping 34 weeks & my appointment) on Friday or that weekend.
See you then 🙂
Is it just me or do the weeks go by faster the closer you get to your due date!? This whole pregnancy seems to have gone quickly but that’s probably because I only found out at 20 weeks & went to the dr for the first time at 24 weeks.
So let’s recap how 31 weeks treated me!
Not too much has changed.
I’ve been walking almost everyday and even though my body does hurt a bit afterwards, I do feel better after doing it. The heat can be a bit much sometimes but it’s not too bad. I do bring plenty of water with me on these walks, so no worries there.
Baby is still moving around like crazy! I have no idea if Baby W has turned yet or not. I’ll out next week at my appointment.
I still don’t think I look 32 weeks. Mister and I were talking about it and we both say that this is the smallest that I’ve ever been pregnant. Which is fine with me since baby is doing just fine. Less to worry take off after baby comes.
My allergies are much better! I’m not coughing as much and my nose isn’t running/stuffy like it has been the last few weeks. Thank goodness!
I ordered Baby W’s diaper bag on March 30th and I finally got a shipping notice yesterday that it’s being shipped out! Finally! I cannot wait to get it & see what it looks like in person. It’s yellow and chevron and oh so pretty! Once I get that in the mail I can post all the baby buys that we have done so far if y’all would like!
This part is TMI, so if you don’t want to keep reading that’s fine with me. But you have been warned!!
Yesterday (the day that I turned 32 weeks) I was going to the bathroom and I noticed that it looked like some of my mucus plug was on the tissue. It didn’t dawn on me that that’s what I saw until I put the tissue in the toilet already. So I’ve been keeping my eye out every time I go to the bathroom.
I know that it can start coming out weeks before you go into labor. Nothing else has been happening to go along with that. No Braxton hicks or consistent contractions. No bloody show or anything like that. I haven’t seen it since that just one time yesterday. We will see what this week brings.
Like I said, my appointment is next Friday so I’ll have more information from that end on my next update. See you next week when I am 33 weeks and talking about what 32 weeks brought me 🙂
I turned 25 weeks on 04/03/14.
Not much has changed since last week. Still feel bloated/full at the end of the day & my skin feels tight. The baby bump is definitely more noticeable this week.
No food aversions but there are foods that I once liked but no longer taste good to me anymore. Sweet tea, some chocolate, coffee, potato salad are just a few that I can remember off the top of my head. They don’t make me sick, they just don’t taste the same and so I have no desire to eat them.
I have one pair of pre-pregnancy jeans that I cannot fit into anymore. I bought a few dresses that I really love & think they look super cute on me. They aren’t something I would wear not pregnant (I am not a dress person) but the bump makes it cute 🙂
*Bathroom selfie. 24 weeks 6 days*
Baby W has definitely been moving around a lot more. His/her kicks wake me up in the middle of the night now.
I have these moments during the day when I’m sitting, baby will kick, catch me off guard, and I want to turn to the person next to me and ask “Hey, did you feel that?!” But then my brain works correctly & let’s me know that no one else can feel those kicks.
Speaking of brain… totally loosing it! I’m super scatter brained and if it weren’t attached, I’d probably lose it!
That’s what’s going on this week! See you later 🙂
(Written on 04/03/14)
Well, I obviously have something I want to share and, hopefully, the title caught your attention enough to want to stop & read 🙂
We recently found out that we are expecting baby #6!
As of right now I have no details on this pregnancy except that the only reason I felt the need to take a test was because I was awakened one morning (at about 4am I might add!) with what felt like kicking. Sure enough, 2 blue lines showed up on the stick.
Waiting on insurance and then I’ll be getting my bootay to the dr.
I’m not sure when I’ll actually be publishing this post but it’ll be after our parents know.
Hope you will want to join me on this next ride!
Most of my friends have been asking me what we are planning on naming the baby, as we are calling himher Baby L. I have been holding off telling people because I wasn’t sure if my husband wanted to tell everyone yet or wait until we had the baby. I had asked him the other night what his opinon on it was and he said he didn’t care if people knew.
Along with asking what we are planning on naming the baby, we have been asked what Baby “L” means…..our last name starts with a W. Over a year ago my husband and I talked about what we would name any future children we had. I picked a girls name & he picked a boys name….both happened to start “L”. So here are the names that we will name this baby.
Boy: Landon Messi
Girl: Lily MaKynna (pronounced Mekenna)
So there ya have it! This baby will have one of those names in June-ish!