I don’t have this answer.
What I do know is that I am trying my hardest to relish what time I have left of this pregnancy. This could be the last time I feel one of my children from the inside. The last time that I carry around a belly that sparks conversation no matter where I go. The last time that I feel little hiccups that make my belly jump.
I have been pregnant more than I haven’t. I’ve never gone very long without carrying a baby inside me. The thought that this could be my last time, throws me back a bit. To not experience any of this again is a little mind blowing.
As my days are numbered with this little one growing inside my belly, I’ve been thinking about all this. I’ve become a bit emotional about it. Half of me wants to stay pregnant as long as I possibly can and the other half wants to get this show on the road so I can meet this baby!
I’m not sure what to do with or how to process all these emotions at one time and in such a short amount of time.
I know this baby will come on His terms. No matter what I do, this baby’s birthday is completely out of my hands. Again, part of me is completely fine with that and part of me is not.
I want to hold this baby. I want to smell that newborn smell. I want to experience labor & delivery one more time. I want to meet our 6th child.
I don’t normally blog this late but my thoughts aren’t letting me relax and I needed to get this out. My mind is going rapidly and a crazy these last few days because this pregnancy is coming to an end…..and very soon.
All I want is a healthy baby and a successful vbac delivery.
Oh and to hold Landon or Emma 🙂
So here we are….40 weeks & 1 day. Baby W has decided that it’s not time to come and he/she just isn’t ready to grace us with their presence.
Here is a recap of 39 weeks.
Besides just feeling pressure, there wasn’t much going on & no change in anything.
Wednesday evening me & a bestie went walking to try and get things started. We walked 2 miles. Then I came home and went to the store with Mister = more walking. Then we Googled pressure points to help induce labor & then Mister rubbed those points. Nothing came from any of those efforts.
Another bestie of mine has been out of town helping one of her family members & Mister said that this baby is probably waiting on her to come back into town. Well, she stopped by yesterday and told Baby W that it was ok to come anytime now! We’ll see how well Baby listens 😉
And then last night happened. We had eaten dinner, our family that is in town had gone back to their hotel, and the kiddos were getting ready to have a cupcake. I was sitting on the couch & I felt a ton of pressure building up on the under part of my belly. At first I figured that it was just pressure and nothing would come from it. Well then it started to build again and I had to close my eyes and concentrate & then the discomfort/pain went down. These contractions started to be consistent & started to become more painful. Mister finally said that I needed to start timing them. He could tell by the way that I was acting & getting irritated when people talked to me that these were the real deal. At first I wasn’t sure just because of the way they felt. They weren’t what I remembered with my other 4 labors (I never labored with baby #5). I said that I would start timing them after I went to the bathroom. Went to the bathroom and decided to get my shower in at that time instead of waiting until later in the evening…just in case. Nothing happened after I got up from the couch. Everything stopped. No pain. No contractions. No nothing. I was so bummed. I really thought it was about to be go time. Since it stopped, we did the pressure points again. Nothing happened over night. This takes us to this morning (Friday). I had my appointment this morning and was ready to see what the dr would have to say & see if I had dilated more since last week.
Everything checked out just fine with me (weight & blood pressure). We talked about induction options. There is a small chance that my uterus could rupture period because of having a prior csection. My risk increases (not by much) when you put the option in of using pitocin. I would really not like to add a higher chance of my uterus rupturing if it’s not needed. My dr knows this and we are on the same page. She will allow me to go all of next week to go into labor on my own but if I don’t, then we will schedule an induction for the last week of July. She asked if I wanted to be checked and I said yes. I wanted to know if I dilated more with everything that was going on. I am still at 2cm, no biggie. I asked her if she would do a membrane sweep & she said she would. I told her to go ahead and do it. Boy was that more painful than I remember! Of course I had some spotting afterwards and have had some cramping but that’s to be expected. My next appointment is scheduled for Wednesday the 23rd if there is no baby before then.
Hopefully I can get this baby to come on his/her own! I do not want to be induced or have another csection! I will continue to try natural ways to get things moving & pray it works!
If something happens between now and my next appointment, I will definitely update 🙂
40 weeks & 1 day (July 18, 2014)
I do feel like I am carrying around a watermelon most days!
Exactly 1 week until this little is due! I cannot believe these last 20ish weeks have gone by so quickly!
Let’s recap week 38!
Lots of pressure and cramping going on this week. No bloody show yet either. At my last appointment, I was almost 3cm dilated. So I know that this discomfort is doing something productive! My next appointment won’t be until next Friday unless this little one comes before that. I really had a feeling that this baby would make his/her appearance this week. I know the week isn’t over yet but I am running out of days. I’m not worried about which day this baby decides to come on, I am more concerned about having a healthy baby & a successful vbac.
Something that I hadn’t thought of until Mister brought it up was will my labor feel any different from my other labors before having the csection. He brought it up because of having nerves & muscles cut. I have no idea if it will or not but it’s probably something that I should pay attention to. I think he brought it up because I have been having cramping on my sides that lead to cramping in my abdomen that are consistent for a little while but then stop….just like contractions. I am waiting for those contractions that make you stop and hunch over and make you focus on breathing…that’s a contraction to me. Though I do have to say that when I was in labor with Coleman (baby #4) my labor started with cramping under my belly area. I know that each labor is different no matter what but it is something to think about & pay attention to. Definitely not trying to have this baby in a car or anywhere like that!
I have been feeling more and more tired. It is very hard for me to get up in the mornings now. I am sleeping until almost 10am on some days. I don’t really like it because I feel like half my day is already gone by then.
I feel sick randomly throughout the day. Which makes it difficult to eat. I’ll get hungry, get something to eat, and then feel sick & cannot eat it.
I am also feeling irritated out of nowhere. Nothing happens to irritate me. I don’t want to be touched or talked to. This feeling usually only happens to me when I am labor. Mister thinks that I could be laboring at these moments but don’t even notice it.
I am pretty sure that I have everything ready for this baby. The only thing that we need to do is clean out the truck and then put the car seat in. We are planning on doing that before this weekend is over….just so stinking hot outside!
I would say that the only other thing that needs to be done is Mister fixing a corner of the little bed that we have & used for Lily. The corner broke on it. But that isn’t something that needs to be done ASAP since we will be co-sleeping with Baby W.
Other than that, everything is ready to go! Just need baby to fill out these clothes and diapers!
I have other things that I would like to get done around the house (still) before the baby comes but that’s pretty much a never ending story. After I finish one thing I find something else that I want to get done. Doing what I can until it’s go time. Not trying to over do anything but definitely wanting to get these things checked off my list…..I think that’s the perfectionist in me though.
Over all, who knows when this baby is going to come. All I know is it will be a July baby. This baby has a deadline and will come out sooner rather than later. It’s just fun to hear when everyone thinks Baby W will get here. We are all excited to meet him/her & find out whether we have a Landon or an Emma. It’s the anticipation that is getting to me at this point. I just cannot wait to hold this little one in my arms and smell that new baby smell!
Here Baby W and I am at 39 weeks exactly:
We shall see if I make a 40 week update or a Baby W update…..which will come first!?
Today was my 38 week dr appointment. Due to scheduling issues, I had to reschedule from last Thursday to today. Click here to ready my update from Thursday!
I only gained a pound since my last appointment. Yay for that! My blood pressure was fine. And there finally wasn’t protein in my urine, phew!
Baby’s heart rate was 148. Still head down!
I asked to be checked this time. With everything that I have been feeling, I wanted to see if I was still at 1 cm dilated or I had progressed. She said that I wasn’t quite at a 3 but definitely at 2 cm dilated! Good to know that this discomfort is doing something!
She will allow me to go 2 weeks past my due date. Which I am thankful for. I would rather a dr give me time to try & have my body go into labor naturally then cut me short. Plus I have read that if you are having a VBAC, then using pitocin can make your uterus rupture. Not something I want to do at all! Even though the risk may be low, not willing to take that chance.
I had an appointment for this Friday but since she saw me today, that appointment is cancelled, and I will go back on 07/18 if Baby W hasn’t made his/her appearance by then.
As of today, I am 10 days away from my due date…..crazy!!!!
Here I am at 38 weeks & 4 days 🙂
See you Thursday for another update…..39 weeks then!!!! 🙂
Only a couple of weeks left!
Let’s recap week 37!
Nothing much as changed over this last week. Lots of pressure going on. Mucus plug is still coming out but no bloody show. No contractions. Baby is always moving. It feels like there is never a time that the baby isn’t moving! Some nights I can feel & see that my feet are swelling. Nothing concerning about it, just think that it’s that point in the pregnancy. When I stand up/walk, usually at night, I feel like if my belly were to push out anymore, it would pop! I am trying to stand up straight when I walk but man, there is a lot of weight going on in the front!
I was supposed to have a dr appointment this morning but some scheduling issues came up & it had to get rescheduled for Monday morning. I will do a little update after my appointment. I am anxious to see if I am dilated anymore!
I finally have my bag packed! Two gold stars for that one….took me long enough! There are just some last minute items that will be added when it’s actually time to go. I am getting excited to see when my body will start contractions & when this little ones birthday will be. I have had so much fun seeing when people think I will go into labor with this fun game! I’m excited to see who will get the date right or at least close!
I almost have the house to where I would be ok if I went into labor right now. I want it to look a certain way so that when I come back from the hospital, I don’t walk in & get stressed just by looking at the mess that was left or see something that I wanted to put away before it was go time. I know that it won’t be exactly the way that I want but close enough is good enough at this point.
I forgot a picture this time but I will get one taken on Monday for my update 🙂
So I am finally getting around to packing my hospital bag, I only decided which bag I was going to use last week. Hey, at least I’m not in labor packing it 😉
Even though I have done this 5 times before, I can never remember if I missing something in my bag. You would think by now that I would just keep a list and then refer back to it each time.
So this is where you come into play…..help me figure out if I am missing anything & what you think that I should add.
What is packed:
* few pairs of underwear
* few pairs of socks
* tank tops
* breast pads
* hair ties
* tooth brush & paste
* bar soap
* wash cloth
* sports bra
* nursing bra
* camera charger
* head phones
Packed when I go into labor:
* hair brush
* flip flops
* phone chargers
* laptop & charger
What am I missing? I *think* that I have everything covered but I can’t rely too much on my brain lately. Thanks for all your help 🙂
Since I am turning 37 weeks tomorrow (What?!) I figured I would just combine the two weeks. I was supposed to have an appointment last but life got in the way (anyone else know what I’m talking about!?) and so I had to reschedule my appointment for Monday. Plus I had an appointment scheduled for Friday but since I was in Monday, my dr just said to cancel that one & she’ll just see me next week. Sounds good to me!
For the past 2 weeks I have been feeling lots of pressure and cramping in my lower back & on the under side of my belly. Sunday was the day that this happened the most. Mister kept asking me if I was ok. He’s getting on his toes about all this too! Nothing to the point that I feel the need to call my dr or go to labor & delivery but can definitely tell my body is getting ready to have this baby. I’ve been drinking my water still but it never seems to be enough (I’ll explain when I talk about my appointment). The belly is definitely getting the way of doing things. Sometimes I have to hold my breath to tie my shoes, haha! Getting up off the floor is a challenge all in itself. Oh to be a fly on the wall to watch me sometimes…I am sure that I would be laughing at myself most of the time! Something that I keep forgetting to say is that I have noticed no new stretch marks! Which totally awesome to me since I always seem to get new ones with each baby. I am definitely waddling when I walk. I am sitting here trying to think of anything else that I need to update on but I don’t think so…or at least I can’t remember 😉
So onto the dr appointment update!
My appointment was Monday afternoon. These last few appointments that I have, I always get excited about them. I love to see what my body is doing and how it’s progressing this far along. According to the scale, I have lost a pound since last week. I was not expecting that since #1, it was an afternoon appointment & #2, the amount of food I have been shoving in my face. I asked my nurse what my total weight gain had been up until now, which isn’t all that accurate since I didn’t start going to the dr until I was 24 weeks but I can’t imagine that I have gained too much since I didn’t look pregnant until even after I found out. Anyway, she said that as of Monday, I have only gained a total of 15 pounds! I was not expecting that number at all! I am pretty proud of myself for that. I know that I usually gain more than that.
I was hoping that she would check me since I told her that I was having a lot of pressure but she didn’t, hopefully next week I will get checked. When she was measuring my belly she doubled checked that I had always been measuring a week bigger than what I actually am &, yes, I have. So still on that track. No my due date hasn’t changed. She was checking the heart rate of the baby & started to get a bit concerned. She checked my heart rate and said that mine was a bit fast. Usually the baby’s heart rate is in the 140s-150s and it was only registering at 110-117 she said. She wanted me to get an ultrasound done to make sure that everything was ok with the baby. Baby is very active and always moving. Better to be safe than sorry. Once I was able to get squeezed into the ultrasound room, everything checked out just fine. The baby’s heart rate was back up to it’s normal. We got a few more pictures again! Mostly a squished face but we also got a picture of the baby’s hair! Thought that was so cool because I have never seen hair on an ultrasound before. I would scan these pictures but I cannot get the printer installed onto our computer for whatever reason. Mister is still looking into that.
Anyway, that’s it for right now.
Oh! If you would like to join in on the fun & make a prediction on when I will have this baby and then gender, please click here! We are getting close to some of these dates! I am excited to see who gets the closest!!! Today is actually the day of one of the guesses…..we will see!!!
Taken at 36 weeks and 4 days!
See you next week 🙂
Only 6 more weeks?! This is crazy!
I know that I say this every week but I cannot believe how fast this is all going & how quickly D day is coming! I was hoping that the days would go by slower….no such luck! So let’s recap week 33.
I turned 34 weeks on 06/05/14.
I was told last week that I have a waddle. I didn’t feel like I was waddling and don’t watch myself walk, so I wouldn’t really know. But I guess it is at that point in pregnancy where I would have one. No biggie to me though!
I have noticed that my belly seems to be a bit bigger but not by much.
Baby has been more active at night when I am laying down. His/her movements have become more uncomfortable also. I don’t know if this is because the baby is trying to turn (pretty sure baby hasn’t done this yet) or if it’s because baby is just running out of space. Who knows & it doesn’t really matter but it’s just something that I have noticed.
I have Baby W’s bag packed (for the most part). I will need to add things to it as it gets closer and/or if I can think of anything else to add. Knowing me, I will probably rearrange things & repack it a few more times. Usually this has been done for at least a month now….definitely been slacking!
(Yes there are clothes in there, they are just all under that fantabulous blanket that you see next to the diapers.)
Baby seems to be getting the hiccups more often or maybe I am just noticing them more. I usually only feel/notice them at night.
I have not been having any braxton hicks or even contractions.
I’ve still been walking almost everyday but if it’s too hot outside, I won’t venture out. It just gets too hot here some days.
I have a few friends who don’t think that I will make it into July at all! This makes me nervous! I have never had a baby more than a few days before their due date. Having a baby at least 2 weeks before their due date isn’t something that I would like to happen. But believe me, no matter when this baby gets here, it will surely be loved by many 🙂
My next doctors appointment is this Friday the 13th. I will be having an ultrasound at this appointment as well as getting checked. I am hoping that with the ultrasound it will show that the baby has turned. I really don’t want to have to worry about this again. I know that I have at least a month to get baby turned if need be but having tried during my last pregnancy and nothing worked….it’s just not something that I would like to go through again. We shall see on Friday though!
One of my best friends has pretty much taken care of all the details for me. She already has plans for our other kiddos. Which is very helpful for us! She is also going to come up to the hospital after baby is born and take some pictures. Which I am totally excited about because we have never had pictures like that before.
I also have all 5 kiddos bags packed for ‘go time’. They aren’t allowed to go into these bags now that they are packed. It’s all set, they would just need to put shoes on. I still need to start on my bag but I will probably do that in the next week or 2. Whatever Mister will be bringing will probably be thrown into my bag when it’s time. That’s just how he rolls. No biggie to me though since he’s low maintenance and doesn’t want a ton of stuff anyway while we are there.
I think this is all I have to update you on. I will do my 35 week update (recapping 34 weeks & my appointment) on Friday or that weekend.
See you then 🙂
I haven’t posted this because I have been waiting to remember to take a picture, so hopefully by the time this is posted I will have remembered before I turn 34 weeks 😉
So I’m going to recap 32 weeks.
Nothing eventful to report from this past week.
Still loosing my mucus plug. Pressure when I walk sometimes. The baby tends to push towards the front of my belly when I walk. I have no idea what this is about or why it happens. Doesn’t bother me or hurt, I just don’t remember this happening with any other pregnancies. I sometimes feel pressure going on down there but at this point, I am expecting that. Getting more tired as I’m doing things. I have to take more breaks throughout whatever it is that I am doing where as I used to be able to do more in the same period of time. That part is still frustrating for me but there’s nothing that I can do about it at this point. I can definitely feel nesting kicking in! If my body would let me, I would be doing something around this house all day long. There just seems to be something that I want to get done all the time. I am going to work on getting these things done but pacing myself so I don’t over do it or throw myself into labor before it’s actually time. (This is where my lists will come in handy 🙂 )
It has also been brought to my attention that I haven’t even started packing any bags for when it’s go time! What!? Once I realized this I was a little shocked with myself. Usually I am on top of things like this & have already rearranged the bags a few times. 1 reason why I think this is is because of all the other things that I want to get done & have just been pushing bag packing to the side. I also blame the fact that I am so scatter brained this pregnancy on why it’s not done. I’m pretty sure that I’ve said it before but I have never been this scattered brained, ever! I truly have pregnancy brain this time around & it’s driving me a bit crazy!
This week I am going to focus on finishing up my nesting list & bag packing.
I had my appointment this past Friday.
I gained less than 10 pounds since my appointment last month. According to the dr & nurse, I am still dehydrated some. I don’t know how I can drink any more water than I already am! But I know that since I have been walking and the heat, I am sure that has something to do that all that. I will just keep drinking my water and, hopefully, I won’t need to have an IV hooked up to me. Everything else checked out just fine. I go back on 06/13. My dr said she wanted to get an ultrasound done & then check me to see if anything is going on. I am so hoping that this baby turns (hasn’t as of yet) because I do not want another csection if I don’t have to!
Alright readers, see you next Thursday for my next update 🙂