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When will this baby come!?

I don’t have this answer.

What I do know is that I am trying my hardest to relish what time I have left of this pregnancy. This could be the last time I feel one of my children from the inside. The last time that I carry around a belly that sparks conversation no matter where I go. The last time that I feel little hiccups that make my belly jump.
I have been pregnant more than I haven’t. I’ve never gone very long without carrying a baby inside me. The thought that this could be my last time, throws me back a bit. To not experience any of this again is a little mind blowing.

As my days are numbered with this little one growing inside my belly, I’ve been thinking about all this. I’ve become a bit emotional about it. Half of me wants to stay pregnant as long as I possibly can and the other half wants to get this show on the road so I can meet this baby!
I’m not sure what to do with or how to process all these emotions at one time and in such a short amount of time.

I know this baby will come on His terms. No matter what I do, this baby’s birthday is completely out of my hands. Again, part of me is completely fine with that and part of me is not.

I want to hold this baby. I want to smell that newborn smell. I want to experience labor & delivery one more time. I want to meet our 6th child.

I don’t normally blog this late but my thoughts aren’t letting me relax and I needed to get this out. My mind is going rapidly and a crazy these last few days because this pregnancy is coming to an end…..and very soon.

All I want is a healthy baby and a successful vbac delivery.

Oh and to hold Landon or Emma 🙂

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40 weeks, Baby #6

 

So here we are….40 weeks & 1 day. Baby W has decided that it’s not time to come and he/she just isn’t ready to grace us with their presence.
Here is a recap of 39 weeks.

Besides just feeling pressure, there wasn’t much going on & no change in anything.
Wednesday evening me & a bestie went walking to try and get things started. We walked 2 miles. Then I came home and went to the store with Mister = more walking. Then we Googled pressure points to help induce labor & then Mister rubbed those points. Nothing came from any of those efforts.
Another bestie of mine has been out of town helping one of her family members & Mister said that this baby is probably waiting on her to come back into town. Well, she stopped by yesterday and told Baby W that it was ok to come anytime now! We’ll see how well Baby listens 😉
And then last night happened. We had eaten dinner, our family that is in town had gone back to their hotel, and the kiddos were getting ready to have a cupcake. I was sitting on the couch & I felt a ton of pressure building up on the under part of my belly. At first I figured that it was just pressure and nothing would come from it. Well then it started to build again and I had to close my eyes and concentrate & then the discomfort/pain went down. These contractions started to be consistent & started to become more painful. Mister finally said that I needed to start timing them. He could tell by the way that I was acting & getting irritated when people talked to me that these were the real deal. At first I wasn’t sure just because of the way they felt. They weren’t what I remembered with my other 4 labors (I never labored with baby #5). I said that I would start timing them after I went to the bathroom. Went to the bathroom and decided to get my shower in at that time instead of waiting until later in the evening…just in case. Nothing happened after I got up from the couch. Everything stopped. No pain. No contractions. No nothing. I was so bummed. I really thought it was about to be go time. Since it stopped, we did the pressure points again. Nothing happened over night. This takes us to this morning (Friday). I had my appointment this morning and was ready to see what the dr would have to say & see if I had dilated more since last week.

Everything checked out just fine with me (weight & blood pressure). We talked about induction options. There is a small chance that my uterus could rupture period because of having a prior csection. My risk increases (not by much) when you put the option in of using pitocin. I would really not like to add a higher chance of my uterus rupturing if it’s not needed. My dr knows this and we are on the same page. She will allow me to go all of next week to go into labor on my own but if I don’t, then we will schedule an induction for the last week of July. She asked if I wanted to be checked and I said yes. I wanted to know if I dilated more with everything that was going on. I am still at 2cm, no biggie. I asked her if she would do a membrane sweep & she said she would. I told her to go ahead and do it. Boy was that more painful than I remember! Of course I had some spotting afterwards and have had some cramping but that’s to be expected. My next appointment is scheduled for Wednesday the 23rd if there is no baby before then.
Hopefully I can get this baby to come on his/her own! I do not want to be induced or have another csection! I will continue to try natural ways to get things moving & pray it works!
If something happens between now and my next appointment, I will definitely update 🙂

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40 weeks & 1 day (July 18, 2014)

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Week 39, Baby #6


I do feel like I am carrying around a watermelon most days!
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Exactly 1 week until this little is due! I cannot believe these last 20ish weeks have gone by so quickly!

Let’s recap week 38!

Lots of pressure and cramping going on this week. No bloody show yet either. At my last appointment, I was almost 3cm dilated. So I know that this discomfort is doing something productive! My next appointment won’t be until next Friday unless this little one comes before that. I really had a feeling that this baby would make his/her appearance this week. I know the week isn’t over yet but I am running out of days. I’m not worried about which day this baby decides to come on, I am more concerned about having a healthy baby & a successful vbac.
Something that I hadn’t thought of until Mister brought it up was will my labor feel any different from my other labors before having the csection. He brought it up because of having nerves & muscles cut. I have no idea if it will or not but it’s probably something that I should pay attention to. I think he brought it up because I have been having cramping on my sides that lead to cramping in my abdomen that are consistent for a little while but then stop….just like contractions. I am waiting for those contractions that make you stop and hunch over and make you focus on breathing…that’s a contraction to me. Though I do have to say that when I was in labor with Coleman (baby #4) my labor started with cramping under my belly area. I know that each labor is different no matter what but it is something to think about & pay attention to. Definitely not trying to have this baby in a car or anywhere like that!

I have been feeling more and more tired. It is very hard for me to get up in the mornings now. I am sleeping until almost 10am on some days. I don’t really like it because I feel like half my day is already gone by then.
I feel sick randomly throughout the day. Which makes it difficult to eat. I’ll get hungry, get something to eat, and then feel sick & cannot eat it.
I am also feeling irritated out of nowhere. Nothing happens to irritate me. I don’t want to be touched or talked to. This feeling usually only happens to me when I am labor. Mister thinks that I could be laboring at these moments but don’t even notice it.

I am pretty sure that I have everything ready for this baby. The only thing that we need to do is clean out the truck and then put the car seat in. We are planning on doing that before this weekend is over….just so stinking hot outside!
I would say that the only other thing that needs to be done is Mister fixing a corner of the little bed that we have & used for Lily. The corner broke on it. But that isn’t something that needs to be done ASAP since we will be co-sleeping with Baby W.
Other than that, everything is ready to go! Just need baby to fill out these clothes and diapers!

I have other things that I would like to get done around the house (still) before the baby comes but that’s pretty much a never ending story. After I finish one thing I find something else that I want to get done. Doing what I can until it’s go time. Not trying to over do anything but definitely wanting to get these things checked off my list…..I think that’s the perfectionist in me though.

Over all, who knows when this baby is going to come. All I know is it will be a July baby. This baby has a deadline and will come out sooner rather than later. It’s just fun to hear when everyone thinks Baby W will get here. We are all excited to meet him/her & find out whether we have a Landon or an Emma. It’s the anticipation that is getting to me at this point. I just cannot wait to hold this little one in my arms and smell that new baby smell!

Here Baby W and I am at 39 weeks exactly:

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We shall see if I make a 40 week update or a Baby W update…..which will come first!?

 

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38 Weeks, Baby #6

 

Only a couple of weeks left!
Let’s recap week 37!

Nothing much as changed over this last week. Lots of pressure going on. Mucus plug is still coming out but no bloody show. No contractions. Baby is always moving. It feels like there is never a time that the baby isn’t moving! Some nights I can feel & see that my feet are swelling. Nothing concerning about it, just think that it’s that point in the pregnancy. When I stand up/walk, usually at night, I feel like if my belly were to push out anymore, it would pop! I am trying to stand up straight when I walk but man, there is a lot of weight going on in the front!

I was supposed to have a dr appointment this morning but some scheduling issues came up & it had to get rescheduled for Monday morning. I will do a little update after my appointment. I am anxious to see if I am dilated anymore!

I finally have my bag packed! Two gold stars for that one….took me long enough! There are just some last minute items that will be added when it’s actually time to go. I am getting excited to see when my body will start contractions & when this little ones birthday will be. I have had so much fun seeing when people think I will go into labor with this fun game! I’m excited to see who will get the date right or at least close!
I almost have the house to where I would be ok if I went into labor right now. I want it to look a certain way so that when I come back from the hospital, I don’t walk in & get stressed just by looking at the mess that was left or see something that I wanted to put away before it was go time. I know that it won’t be exactly the way that I want but close enough is good enough at this point.

I forgot a picture this time but I will get one taken on Monday for my update 🙂

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Mind = blown

I have said this a few times on the blog, on Facebook, and to friends & family but it still blows my mind that I will be giving birth to my 6th (!) child some time this month. 6 little people that depend on me to help them make it through life…alive! I have to teach them good. I have to make sure they aren’t lumps on a log when they grow up and leave the nest. But mostly importantly, I have to make sure that I don’t lose my mind in the mist of all this!

It probably won’t sink in 100% until I am holding our 6th child. The number 6 just blows my mind. I’m not sure if it’s because this is a number I never wanted nor thought that I would have or what. As much as it upset me when I found out that we were having another baby, I cannot express how happy & excited I am to bring this little one into the world! I cannot wait to see what he/she looks like, what kind of personality it will have, and if this baby will be a Landon or an Emma. What will this kiddo bring to our family?

It’s very obvious that our lives will changing adding another family member but I just pray that it’s for the best. I pray that we guide all our children in the right direction. I pray that we make the changes that we need to be able to what God has called us to do.

I still wake up and can’t believe that when I look down, I have a pregnant belly. Some mornings I wake up and forget that I am pregnant until I touch my belly or get up.
It amazes me that I went 20 weeks without knowing that this little person was growing inside me. It amazes that this life has been given to me and entrusted in my care. Out of everyone God could have chosen to be his/her mom, He chose me. I will never know the answer to this question, nor does it even matter at the end of the day. What matters is that I do my best every day to provide this child (and all my children) what he/she needs.

Even though it was a rocky start between me and this baby, I am so very thankful for this baby. I know that there are plenty of women out there that would switch places with me in a heart beat. This baby has taught me so much about my faith, friends, and God & he/she isn’t even born yet.

I love this baby and cannot wait to see his/her squishy little face in the very near future!

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How bizarre?!

Mister- “Don’t freak out but something happened at work.”

[Men, please do NOT call your wife and say this to her. Not only does it not make us calm but it makes us very nervous for what you are about to say!]

What I heard after that statement I honestly never thought that I would hear nor did I even think that it was possible for something like this to happen in the field that Mister works in.
Mister is a mechanic at a dealership in the town that we live in. He’s great at what he does and has always been careful. Nothing serious has ever happened to him while he’s been on the job. Nothing more than a few cuts and/or scrapes.

On this morning I don’t think that I have ever been so scared/unsure/nervous for Mister than I was during this phone call.
Mister was working under the hood of this car & had to squeeze his hand in a very tight space. I am sure he didn’t think twice about doing this as he’s done this at least a million times before.
Once he put his hand in this space he felt a prick in his hand & pulled out his hand to see what pricked him. I am sure that he never would have thought in a million years that he would find what he did.

A used syringe needle.

Yes, you read that correctly. When he pulled his hand out from the hood of this car, there was a needle sticking out from the palm of his hand. He immediately pulled it out & went to his boss. Not knowing what the needle was used for, they sent him straight to a local drs office. His boss also called the police to have the needle tested for any drugs. The drs office gave him a tetanus shot & drew blood to have it tested. The dr also gave him a prescription for a drug that HIV patients take as a precaution. That in itself is scary to hear! The dr also made Mister an appointment with an infectious disease doctor for the later part of May

I received this phone at about 9am. He gets to work about 8am.

At this point, all we could do was wait to hear what the results were for everything.

He didn’t hear anything about the needle until about 3pm.

The needle tested positive for heroin.
What?! How does this happen?

Misters boss called the owners of the car (I don’t know the time frame of this) and they had admitted that their son was a heroin addict. He was/is currently at a rehab center in Houston & had been there for 4 months already. Since he was at a rehab center, they test the patients. As of right now, this guy isn’t positive for anything. Which doesn’t exactly mean anything. I’ve heard that people can have things show up on their blood tests many years down the road. We are just praying that nothing shows up on his tests….ever!

Between the time that this happened & the infectious disease doctor, nothing was going on with Mister. He didn’t feel any different and wasn’t getting sick. Good deal!

Jump to his appointment.

This doctor gave him a new prescription to take. Took more blood work, which will be tested every so often at a lab in Dallas to make sure nothing shows up in his blood. He has to take this medication for at least 30 days. It can cause vivid dreams & dizziness. (That’s all I can think of, Mister is currently napping). He started taking them this past Friday night. He thought it would be smart to take them at night & not when he had to work the next day. *Smart man* He is experiencing dizziness to the point that he has to stop what he is doing and regain his balance and sense of direction. He’s going to let his boss know tomorrow about this just in case it happens at work. He says that when he takes this medicine, he feels drunk & drugged all at the same time. He was actually slurring his words yesterday from it.
He will need to have his blood checked every 3 months for the next year to make sure nothing shows up on these tests. I am not sure what the dr wants him to do after this first month of taking this medicine.

Besides the few side effects from the medicine, Mister is doing just fine. Thank God!
I will update on what is going on, even if it’s nothing, once this first 30 days of medicine is taken and/or after he talks with the dr again after this round of meds.

Prayers are very much appreciated during this time. It is still full of uncertainty but we also know who is in control. We are at peace with whatever the outcome will be from this accident. We aren’t letting this effect our lives in anyway and carry on like it didn’t happen. There are a few precautions that need to be taken at certain times & we are doing so.

Will update in about 30 days on what happened this last month and what the dr has said.

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34 weeks, Baby #6

Only 6 more weeks?! This is crazy!

I know that I say this every week but I cannot believe how fast this is all going & how quickly D day is coming! I was hoping that the days would go by slower….no such luck! So let’s recap week 33.

I turned 34 weeks on 06/05/14.

I was told last week that I have a waddle. I didn’t feel like I was waddling and don’t watch myself walk, so I wouldn’t really know. But I guess it is at that point in pregnancy where I would have one. No biggie to me though!
I have noticed that my belly seems to be a bit bigger but not by much.
Baby has been more active at night when I am laying down. His/her movements have become more uncomfortable also. I don’t know if this is because the baby is trying to turn (pretty sure baby hasn’t done this yet) or if it’s because baby is just running out of space. Who knows & it doesn’t really matter but it’s just something that I have noticed.
I have Baby W’s bag packed (for the most part). I will need to add things to it as it gets closer and/or if I can think of anything else to add. Knowing me, I will probably rearrange things & repack it a few more times. Usually this has been done for at least a month now….definitely been slacking!
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(Yes there are clothes in there, they are just all under that fantabulous blanket that you see next to the diapers.)
Baby seems to be getting the hiccups more often or maybe I am just noticing them more. I usually only feel/notice them at night.
I have not been having any braxton hicks or even contractions.
I’ve still been walking almost everyday but if it’s too hot outside, I won’t venture out. It just gets too hot here some days.

I have a few friends who don’t think that I will make it into July at all! This makes me nervous! I have never had a baby more than a few days before their due date. Having a baby at least 2 weeks before their due date isn’t something that I would like to happen. But believe me, no matter when this baby gets here, it will surely be loved by many 🙂

My next doctors appointment is this Friday the 13th. I will be having an ultrasound at this appointment as well as getting checked. I am hoping that with the ultrasound it will show that the baby has turned. I really don’t want to have to worry about this again. I know that I have at least a month to get baby turned if need be but having tried during my last pregnancy and nothing worked….it’s just not something that I would like to go through again. We shall see on Friday though!

One of my best friends has pretty much taken care of all the details for me. She already has plans for our other kiddos. Which is very helpful for us! She is also going to come up to the hospital after baby is born and take some pictures. Which I am totally excited about because we have never had pictures like that before.
I also have all 5 kiddos bags packed for ‘go time’. They aren’t allowed to go into these bags now that they are packed. It’s all set, they would just need to put shoes on. I still need to start on my bag but I will probably do that in the next week or 2. Whatever Mister will be bringing will probably be thrown into my bag when it’s time. That’s just how he rolls. No biggie to me though since he’s low maintenance and doesn’t want a ton of stuff anyway while we are there.

I think this is all I have to update you on. I will do my 35 week update (recapping 34 weeks & my appointment) on Friday or that weekend.
See you then 🙂

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In love!

We had three appointments last night to look at three different homes. We weren’t sure what they would look like or what kind of neighborhood they would be in. But they were all 3 bedrooms and in our price range.

The first house so great! The owner of the house was super nice and explained that there was some brand new equipment (heater…things like that) that were less than 2 years old. Big kitchen. Living room flowed into the kitchen which was nice. Garage that was long and where the washerdryer would be. Fenced in backyard. A place to grill, place to play, and even looked like a place to start a garden! The neighborhood was quiet and so nice looking. He used to live there, so he knew the neighbors. The school district is really good & close to Mark’s job. We got an application & it’s all filled out. Hoping to meet up with him today to give it to him.

The other two homes were owned by the same person. We really liked them but we didn’t know anything about the schools and it was further away from work. And one of the homes ended up not being in our price range. The other home we found out is full of ‘hookers & dopes’. We had to stop a police officer because we got lost & asked him about the neighborhood and those were his exact words. So that house was out no matter what.

We are praying so hard that we get the first home we saw last night. I will update when we hear something about it!

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Bummed

Remember in the last post how I told you that I had sent an email to a lady on Craigslist about a house that is for rent?
Well I haven’t heard from her yet and it’s been almost a week 😦
I was really hoping to talk to her and see what she was looking for and see if we could work with her on getting the house. But that doesn’t look like it will happen.
If you would like, please feel free to check out the ad here. I really like what I see and read about this house, but I guess it isn’t meant to be.

I just want the time to get closer so we can start looking for real at places instead of just ‘window’ shopping.