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#30daysofthanks

You all know this hashtag by now, I mean it is the end of November.

I think that I always jump on this bandwagon every year. I don’t think there’s ever been a year that I actually completed 30 days. And seeing the lack of posts in my newsfeed by the end of the month, I’m not the only one. They say 21 days makes a habit but I can never make it that far into the month, ha!

So, if I don’t finish my #30daysofthanks, does that mean I’m not thankful!?

Absolutely not!

I think we should be thankful for everything, everyday. I know that more people are than aren’t. I understand why it’s more focused on in November. This time of year brings to our attention why we should be thankful for what we have and how great our lives actually are. Our focus kinda gets put on the back burner the other 95% of the year. I can totally see how and why that happens. Life happens. Life gets in the way. Our lives are our bubbles and sometimes the things that happen in our bubble are just so consuming that we forget to look outside our bubble. What happens in my bubble may not be a big deal in your bubble and vice versa. We tend to not be as merry and bright the rest of the year. We don’t put as much emphasize on giving and others the rest of the year.

Or maybe you & your family does. I know that our daily events get in the way I/we forget or choose not to focus on it. I’ve got a lot going on in my life daily that I’d rather not think of everyone else’s problems. As harsh as that may sound, it’s true and I know I’m not the only that thinks like this. It’s not meant to be mean or offensive to anyone but it is the truth.

Let me be real with you right now. My attitude, words, and thoughts have been anything but thankful these couple of days, almost a week. I see myself being thankful in certain moments or when things go a certain way. I’m seeing that I’m not so thankful when those moments aren’t going my way or something unexpectedly happens that throws a wrench in my plans. I have been spewing words of anger, hate, and just plain nasty words to my family. This is not ok. This isn’t me being the best me that I can be. This isn’t me setting a good example for my children. This isn’t me being a safe/happy place for my family to enjoy. I’m wallowing in my own self pity and getting so mad about something that won’t even matter next week. And if it will matter next week, it’s not even a big deal. I am not liking this side of me at all. I feel awful and horrible about how I’ve been treating my family and the words that have been coming out of my mouth. I am ashamed and would be embarrassed if anyone overheard me.

 

And so because of this, I am giving myself a challenge. You can join me if you’d like, you can help hold me accountable, you can just simply read my posts, or you can do nothing. All are acceptable and perfectly fine for you.

Starting January 1, 2015 I am going to be posting what I am thankful for every day for 365 days. It seems like a big task and. Bit overwhelming. I mean, I can’t even post for 30 days what I’m thankful for, what makes me think that I can do 365? I have no idea! But I am going to challenge myself. This is something that I am doing for myself and no one else. I’m not proving anything to anyone. The one reason I am making a public statement is, mostly, for accountability. Plus, I know someone else out there will need to check their attitude & words also. I’m not the only person out there having this negative nancy on their shoulder.

Im putting a stop to it before it gets too far out of hand. I’m the only person that can control this. I’m the only person that can make myself change. I cannot do it for anyone else but myself. I’m sure that by the end I will be a happier person.

Will I have days where I don’t want to find the good and be thankful for something? Yes. Will it be hard to come up with so many things? Sure. Will I miss a day? Or two? Probably! In the end though, it’s not about how many days in a row I did this. Or how many days in a row I missed. It’s a heart thing. It’s a happy heart thing. It’s always about the heart. Good and evil. It’s a heart and mindset kinda thing.

Let’s change our hearts & minds so that we can become the change we want to see I our spouses, kiddos, family members, friends, and communities. Sounds super cheesy, I know.

But I also know that it’s true.

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Meal planning with a budget

I have meal planned before. Mostly just dinners and with no budget. Just made a list of dinners that we would have for that week, make the shopping list, and then bought it. I used to meal plan breakfast & lunch but once my first two kiddos started school, I stopped.
Things have changed, I have 4 kiddos in school (with 2 year old & soon to be newborn at home). During the school year isn’t bad since 4/6 eat at school. Summer time & school vacations are a different story. Dinners aren’t effected but not planning breakfast & lunch just throw me a curve ball. And it’s not like I am surprised when they are home…I have the school schedule!

I have also never planned with a budget before. Like I said, just wrote out what we wanted and then bought it. Should it be no surprise when I tell you that we, usually, run out of our food budget each month before the month is over!? It shouldn’t!
We usually go to the store with a list. Rarely do we go without or hungry. (<—— bad idea by the way!)

This month I am changing that. This month I am going to be aware of our budget & use it.
We will sometimes have to sacrifice meals that want to have meals we can afford. I will have to take time out of my day each week to look up ads, look at what is on sale, and plan our meals around that.
Will it be a pain? Probably.
Will it be worth it? Definitely.

We have a small budget to work with & it needs to feed 7 people, 3 meals a day + some snacks & a few desserts.

I will be updating how things are going, what I am doing, and some recipes if anyone is interested. I’ll give as much detail as I can.
I was already to start meal planning today but the 2 stores that we are going to do our shopping at, their new weekly ads don’t come out until tomorrow. So I will sit down with my pen & paper tomorrow for dinners. I have made my weekly list for lunch & breakfast.

I will be posting things & hopefully I can share something useful to you & you can share the same with me. This is a first & I am sure that I will mess up. But at least I’m learning!

Any tricks/tips or recipes that you have would be awesome!

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Mind = blown

I have said this a few times on the blog, on Facebook, and to friends & family but it still blows my mind that I will be giving birth to my 6th (!) child some time this month. 6 little people that depend on me to help them make it through life…alive! I have to teach them good. I have to make sure they aren’t lumps on a log when they grow up and leave the nest. But mostly importantly, I have to make sure that I don’t lose my mind in the mist of all this!

It probably won’t sink in 100% until I am holding our 6th child. The number 6 just blows my mind. I’m not sure if it’s because this is a number I never wanted nor thought that I would have or what. As much as it upset me when I found out that we were having another baby, I cannot express how happy & excited I am to bring this little one into the world! I cannot wait to see what he/she looks like, what kind of personality it will have, and if this baby will be a Landon or an Emma. What will this kiddo bring to our family?

It’s very obvious that our lives will changing adding another family member but I just pray that it’s for the best. I pray that we guide all our children in the right direction. I pray that we make the changes that we need to be able to what God has called us to do.

I still wake up and can’t believe that when I look down, I have a pregnant belly. Some mornings I wake up and forget that I am pregnant until I touch my belly or get up.
It amazes me that I went 20 weeks without knowing that this little person was growing inside me. It amazes that this life has been given to me and entrusted in my care. Out of everyone God could have chosen to be his/her mom, He chose me. I will never know the answer to this question, nor does it even matter at the end of the day. What matters is that I do my best every day to provide this child (and all my children) what he/she needs.

Even though it was a rocky start between me and this baby, I am so very thankful for this baby. I know that there are plenty of women out there that would switch places with me in a heart beat. This baby has taught me so much about my faith, friends, and God & he/she isn’t even born yet.

I love this baby and cannot wait to see his/her squishy little face in the very near future!

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Reactions from our kiddos about adding another sibling

I couldn’t wait to tell our kiddos that we were having another baby! At some point, they’ve all asked if/when we’d have another baby. Our oldest daughter has told me many times that she would like 2 babies in my tummy.

Just a few days before we told them our oldest son came up to me, hugged me, and said “Mom, if feels like you’re having another baby.”. I had started to show at this point but not too much. I said ” Well thank you.” I knew he didn’t mean it in a bad way or anything negative. He immediately started to defend himself and say I’m not trying to be mean. I reassured him that I didn’t think it was mean and my feelings weren’t hurt in any way.

As our kiddos were eating dinner one night I held the ultrasound pictures in my hand. I held up the clearest one we had and asked them what this was a picture of. All they said a baby but who? Our oldest thought they were of him, his siblings, me, and Papa. He listed everyone’s name and we told him no to all of them. He then looked at us and said “Well someone is having a baby.” We said that he was right but who did he think it was. You could see the wheels turning in his mind as he started to realize our family was gaining another baby. As soon as we confirmed to them that we were having another baby, the volume in the room went up!
They were clapping and hollering and saying yay and expressing who wanted a sister & brother. We let them have their moment of excitement. I was so happy that they were happy. Not one of them was upset that they were gaining another sibling.

After the volume returned to a lower volume, we turned to our youngest son (5) and asked him what we should name this baby.
*Remember we don’t know the gender & told the kiddos this too*
At first he said we should name the baby dodohead and cracked himself up. We told him we didn’t think that we would go with that name. Right after we said that he turned to us and said “No, I think I like Emma.”
I was a bit shocked that he thought of a girls names instead of a boys. Even now if you ask him the baby’s name he will say Emma. Maybe he knows something we don’t….only time will tell.

The kiddos are still very excited about this baby, talk about him/her daily, and keep asking when the baby will get here. I’m so thankful they were welcoming this baby with open arms & hearts. Just go on YouTube and you can see many sibling who aren’t too thrilled to be adding to their family.

Not only has God given my husband a heart for a big family, He has also given it to our children as well.
Thank You for that πŸ™‚

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A new do

Between my best friend and my husband, I was peer pressured into going a bit drastic with my hair.
Now most people may not think it was very drastic at all but for me it was a risk!

I very rarely get my hair cut let alone done. Usually when I need my haircut I just ask Mister to cut it for me. My hair is usually in a bun type thing anyway. I don’t have the time nor want to blow dry and then straighten my hair. There’s a lot of it and it’s thick and naturally wavey. It’s a bit time consuming and my arms get tired!
When I have gone somewhere to get color/highlights on my hair one of two things happen….#1- you can’t tell anything was done or #2- I don’t think it. Big waste o’ time to me!

When I mentioned that I wanted to get my hair done, my best friend took no time at all to text me a picture what cut she thought I should go with.

Loved the cut but wasn’t sure it would look good on me (I have a chunky face) and I didn’t think I wanted to go that short. I showed Mister the picture & he agreed with BF.
Then we started talking about color. They both said that I needed to go blonde. That part made me more nervous than anything! After talking with both of them I, nervously, jumped on board & made the appointment.

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*A not so great before picture*

When I arrived at my appointment, sat in the chair, & showed the picture to the stylist she wasted no time in getting to work.

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*I look like I belong in Whoville!*

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*Foils are going on with blonde painted on my hair*

image *Took 2 to blow dry my hair & straighten because we were running out of time*

My appointment was at 12:45….I didn’t walk out of there until 3pm! I have too much hair!

Called Mister to come pick me up & his eyes lit up when he saw me! I love my new cut & color! I had to come home and change my clothes from frumpy to “made an effort” look. I cannot dress frumpy right now with this new do. It just doesn’t look right. It’s forced me to pay attention to what I’m going to put on.

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The new do πŸ™‚

I want to encourage any of you that are thinking about going for a change, DO IT! The risk was worth the outcome for me & I hope it turns out that way for you too!

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Ultrasound/Doctor results

My ultrasound went great!

When the tech put the wand on my belly, what showed up on the screen made my heart skip a beat. There were (what looked like) two perfectly round heads.

“Umm, is that two heads!?” ~me
“No, that’s the head & abdomen”~tech

Phew! Sigh of relief there!

Anyway, Baby W is measuring very well & absolutely nothing to be concerned about.
I am 24 weeks & my weeks turn over on Thursdays. According to the measurements my due date is 07/17! Just around the corner but a better time frame than Coleman’s pregnancy πŸ˜‰

As far as my stats go, everything looks good with me. I’ve barely gained any weight & my blood pressure is just fine. Since I am 24 weeks my dr wanted me to take my glucose test today. I’m sure the results will be just fine, they always have been.

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24 weeks 0 days 03/27/14

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My feeling on baby #6

Terrified to be completely honest with you!
I was very content with having 5 kiddos and being 30 years old. My husband has always I wanted 6 but I hadn’t jumped on that bandwagon yet. I have always told him that I’m done having babies at 30. Not pregnant at 30 or delivering a baby at 30…done at 30.

Well it seems to me that God has a different plan for us than I had. Doesn’t seem to be that way all the time though!? You plan things out and then God comes along & says, nice try but let’s do it my way. Which I know deep down in my heart, is not only the right way but the only way I need to live my life….for Him and His plan/glory/kingdom.

Not only am/was I terrified but as soon as I saw the blue lines I knew what kind of feedback/reactions I was going to get from certain people. I knew who wasn’t going to be happy/excited & who would be. I didn’t want to tell anyone & just wanted to cry.
I promised I would send a picture of the test to one of my best friends as soon as I found out. I’m so thankful for her and how she was excited & made me laugh when I didn’t want to. Isn’t that what besties are for!?

I love babies, my babies, other people having babies, being pregnant, and watching others along their pregnancy journey. This is the way life works.

Went to my weekly bible study lesson & it was a smaller group than normal (in the end I was thankful for that). We were talking about what our homework was and the leader looked at me & said “What?” I hadn’t said anything. She said it looks like God is telling me to say something & I’m telling Him no.
Ok, this woman! She knows something every time! I love her to death and think it’s truly amazing how God speaks to her and she listens. So thankful for her.
I start to cry and tell them I’m pregnant. They are all so excited & happy for our family. God knew I needed that! It was encouraging to hear them speak truth to me when all I wanted to do was mope & feel sorry for myself. I should be confident in what God has given me (this new life/baby) and not be weary of what other people think. Who cares!? I perform for an audience of 1. If I am pleasing Him, then nothing, absolutely nothing else matters in this world. How dare I allow others to steal my joy & excitement for this new life I have growing inside me!?

I must say that it’s much easier for me to type this all out than to have this confidence 100% of the time. I’m not saying I don’t 100% believe it because I absolutely do! I am human and I still question things and will fall back some times/days. That is 100% ok! Just know that I won’t stay in that place of fear/worry. I will get back up and know that He has equipped me/my family with what we need for this baby already…. even if I can’t see it yet.

Don’t be afraid of others with what God has given you. Go forward and know that He is with you every step of the way.

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Announcement time

Well, I obviously have something I want to share and, hopefully, the title caught your attention enough to want to stop & read πŸ™‚

We recently found out that we are expecting baby #6!
As of right now I have no details on this pregnancy except that the only reason I felt the need to take a test was because I was awakened one morning (at about 4am I might add!) with what felt like kicking. Sure enough, 2 blue lines showed up on the stick.
Waiting on insurance and then I’ll be getting my bootay to the dr.

I’m not sure when I’ll actually be publishing this post but it’ll be after our parents know.

Hope you will want to join me on this next ride!

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Is that you God??

I don’t know about anyone else but having God speak to me or me hear Him isn’t something that I have ever experienced…..at least I don’t think it has. I’ve heard from friends and my husband that He’s spoken to them. I find that to be very awesome and comforting. I must admit though, it does make me jealous that they are being spoken to and I’m just chopped liver.

What am I doing wrong?
Am I not praying enough?
Praying good enough?
Am I spending time in His word?
Am I around the wrong people?

These thoughts have (and still do) cross my mind when it comes to this subject. Hearing from God is something that I have honestly longed for for awhile now.

I believe that I am being spoken to now. And to be honest, it makes me nervous. I’m not scared at all. I do find myself almost doing a double take when it hits me that He is showing me something.

I’m currently in a morning women’s bible study at my church & also in an adult class in the evening called Discover Your Ministry.
These two classes are not linked in any way and aren’t even taught by the same people, yet what I’m hearing/learning/taking away from both classes are the same thing. What is being talked about it during the morning matches up with what is talked about in my evening class.

Big deal right?
Yes!!!!

I believe that God is using these two classes/studies to show me where I’m supposed to be! I am amazed every Wednesday at how these two different classes keep lining up for me.

I am shocked, in awe, and excited about this. This is something that has never happened to me before. I am nervous because it is something new but I’m willing to go out on that limb for Him and do what He is calling me to do.

I don’t know everything He is trying to tell me. I don’t know all the details. But I know I don’t have to. I have to have the faith that all of that will (and is already) provided for me, I just need to obey Him.

I can’t wait to share more of this story as it unfolds with you! The fire I am starting to feel is unreal, new to me, and a little overwhelming!

Who else has been there?!

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Real life moments

I know I’ve been gone for months now! Life has been super busy and, to be honest, have been at a loss for words or I wasn’t sure how to put my thoughts into words that made sense.

But I think that streak is over….at least for now πŸ˜‰

The first Friday of November was the first moms group that my church held and it was awesome! We did a craft, heard some great & wise words, and shared. Our speaker shared something that has started to turn inside me andΒ  now sharing with others on Facebook. I will get a copy of this asap!

What I have started on my personal page is share pictures and/thoughts that are my real life moments. So many of us just share the rainbows and sunshine on Facebook. There’s nothing wrong with sharing the great things that are going on in our lives but it does make it a tad bit harder to connect with others if we aren’t sharing the not so great moments.

I have a friend who actually shared her real life moment today! I’m so proud of her because I know it’s not easy and it opens the door to so much judgement from others. Keep sharing those moments!

I’ll make a separate post with everything I’ve shared already, probably will get that up tonight.

Anyway, just wanted to let everyone know that it’s ok to share those real life moments, you aren’t the only one going through these moments!